Day Twenty-Two

Open to Reassurance

Posted by Nathan Beck on August 26, 2023 · 09:43 PM

I'm typing this right now on my phone and transferring it to my laptop afterwards because I'm currently doing the Whitman Bingo Night and I don't think I will have the time to actually sit down at my laptop and do anything tonight.

One thing that I really appreciate is the fact that you are very willing to listen to reassurance from me and believe the things I say and take them to heart. We've honestly come an extremely far way in terms of your own image of yourself, your body, and everything else regarding yourself and how you operate inside a relationship. From day one of us being romantically involved I have given you reassurance, and I'm lucky that you listen to it and internalize it.

What I'm talking about in particular was last night when we talked about how you were having a little bit of a spiral because you thought you were unfit for me because of the differences in our intellectual curiosity. I reassured you for a while, which by the way I still believe everything I told you that night, and you listened to me and calmed down and thought about it even more afterward and were willing to listen and internalize the messages I gave to you.

I appreciate the mental effort on your end so much to sit down and actually think those things through, because I know it's not the easiest dialogues to have with yourself and by yourself occasionally, which is why I am glad I can be here to actually effectively reassure you when I can. Seriously, your commitment to changing and internalizing is so amazing, and I thank you a lot for that.