You are currently returning to your room after eating with your family and going to Junbi. I'm not going to lie, right now I felt kinda out of place and worried that I would just be making things awkward in your family if I joined. I had a moment where I was crying, and I'll tell you about it later today.
What you've told me in the past though is appreciated more than anything. You have said that I will be accepted into your family because I am learning Chinese right now, and that you would love me anyway even if I weren't. I know what you're telling me is true, but I felt just a little doubt in myself that I would ever be good enough at Chinese to join in your family naturally.
I know I just need to keep grinding it, but I appreciate your patience and encouragement and that you felt bad for me today, even though honestly I felt more bad for your mother. I appreciate so much how inclusive you are of me and that you really want me to be integrated into your family eventually, and I know that you think I can do it.
I love the encouragement and reassurance you give me through this ongoing situation, and I am glad that I have you here.